I have a huge animation project hanging over my head and everything is up to me. The fact that the other group in my class has 6 times as many workers yet I am still out performing them strangely discourages me. I don't know, I am still going to make an amazing movie that will be on time. But the motivation is harder to come by when you're on top of Kilimanjaro and the bar was set by a waiter on the beaches of Cancun.

The other and more stressful corner of my life of course has to do with a girl. Not just some girl though, this Miss is so amazing. She is just like me in so many ways and I really am upset that I waited so long to seriously pursue her. I met her over a year ago, but I was busy being stupid and I never really thought I could date this girl. Not that I think I could now, I have no idea what she thinks about the idea, but she is way cool, I have to try man. I think I am too thick because we have been hanging out more than ever, but I still don't know if she feels the same way I do. I am a senior in college and I am acting like an eighth grader!

This weekend we were supposed to go see Crystal Castles and it was going to be amazing, but because life is crazy, our plans were cancelled. I really wanted to see them, but I am not bitter. In fact the more I think about it, I determine that maybe I wasn't supposed to go. Staying in Lafayette does dramatically decrease my risk for being accidentally stabbed with a heroin needle while everyone is dancing crazily at the Congress Theatre, so that is a super positive. Even though we aren't going to the show, I hope that I can still hang out with her this weekend.

The emotions I've experienced this week have been super intense and thankfully I have music to remind me that everything is already taken care of and so I don't need to worry about anything. 'Swimming in the Flood' by Passion Pit. That is the key. When my brain is over analyzing what the girl said or how to animate the next shot, I just lay on top of my bed, close my eyes and accept Michael Angelakos' super soprano vocals and that is when every endorphin rushes through my body and things are alright.